|January 14, 2013||Posted by Koalaborg under Home Life, Raising Children|
If you had asked me a few years ago, I would have told you I envisioned our ideal family as a family of four. But with a lot of discussion, we decided we did want to grow the family a bit, and having a third child sounded like a good idea. And I know people with larger families, and so it wasn’t such an alien concept anymore.
I am quite happy with Julian. I am always amazed at how you as a parent can’t imagine being able to love someone as much as your child, like all your love is directed at your child, and then you have another child and it is as if a whole other endless supply of love is found in your heart for this next child.
It’s the same with the familly size expectation. Even though I originally pictured us as only ever being a family of four, when we decided to try for another, it was as if being a family of five was always what we were meant to be (for now…).
All new baby mushiness aside, I am definitely feeling the stress of having a newborn around. I think what makes it so difficult for me is the age gap between Julian and Ender. They are only 18 months apart, and so Ender is still very much a baby, who likes to be held before bed and definitely needs his Mama cuddle time during the day. If I happen to tend to Julian when Ender is feeling needy, Ender can become upset. This happens a lot at bedtime.
We are only three weeks into all this, so we are still working out the kinks, so to speak. I’m trying to get a better bedtime routine established. Coordinating two babies’ schedules is something new for me, and something I am trying to get a handle on. Kyriandra has been so helpful, and definitely wins a Best Big Sister award! She is very attentive, and just loves both her baby brothers. I can’t imagine keeping up without her help around here.